Saturday, January 26, 2008

Say what now?

That's the procedure? The needle is how long? Oh fuck no. Uh uh. I don't want to do it.

I'm at such a weird place with this. I always fear the worst and I know I shouldn't. And part of me wants to talk to my friends about it while the other part wants to keep it silent. I don't want to lay my problems on anyone and I don't want to be weak and whine. I just can't gauge how I should be reacting to any health situation anymore. I know I will eventually just suck it up and do it like a woman if it's decided it has to be done. I also know there is no way I'm a part of that tiny percentage of life-threatening cases... but for now, just for now, I'm a little scared. =/

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